Reproductively Challenged yet Never Convicted - WHAT?

If you can easily envision Reproductively Challenged Yet Never Convicted as a likely personal epitaph, apparently you suffer as I do from this life-long affliction. If this title leaves you clueless, apparently the reproductive "F" bomb fertility is NOT in your vocabulary and pregnancy always = baby in your world.

I do not have great insight into the world of infertility; nor am I a physician who specializes in the field. I am merely the patient who provided hours of perplexing discussion at fertility seminars and likely funded several of their car notes in the process. No degrees in grief counseling here either; but unfortunately through repetition, I have sufficiently mastered the art of grieving.

There is no shortage of women who have lost a child and definitely no shortage of stories expressing their loss. I believe at times we gain strength from the accounts of others and feel a type of camaraderie that can only be understood by a fellow "reproductively- challenged" member. We feel the pain, cry for the loss and understand the anger. We may even be comforted at times that our own experience, at least on paper, might seem a little less severe. At the end of the day, however intense or painful another experience may be, there is truly no pain or loss worse than our own.

My experience spans over a ten year period and cannot be reduced to one writing. I have posted this brief introduction and Reproductively Challenged Yet Never Convicted -Beginning of the End. If there seems to be an interest, I will follow up with new writings until my story is complete...or everyone screams "STOP!"

If my shared experience makes you laugh at times, cry only occasionally or in general just affirm that you are not crazy or alone as you deal with an empty quiver, it has served its purpose; and hopefully in some small way permitted me to serve my purpose as well. Otherwise, it will remain "all about me" and just stay in my personal therapeutic journal for now. Please send me your comments! They are greatly needed and very appreciated!